Instead of naturally turning to others for comfort, my prayer is that my initial response would be to continually come before the Lord and cast all of my cares on Him.
He is the God of all comfort and the God of all peace.
There is no one that can take away this glorious gift of knowing that He cares, knows, and loves me.
You are faithful to the end,
You will finish what You started
I’ve been learning a lot about myself and who God has created me to be. He made me to be me and by His grace I am what I am. (1 Corinthians 15:10). I’m learning to find joy in the process and learning to embrace the person God has designed me to be.
I shared this with my sisters in Epic, about how I was trying to be someone I wasn’t. On the outside, I was pretending everything was fine, but inside, I felt defeated. I thought to myself, “Will I ever be good enough? Will I ever become the person God wants me to be?” But then, I remembered God already sees each of us as good. He already sees us as righteous because of His Son. He has clothed us with the robe of righteousness, which was paid for by Jesus’ blood.
"The scandal of grace, You died in my place; so my soul could live…”
It’s a sobering thought that I don’t have to try to pretend to be okay when I’m really not. I don’t have to act like I have it all together. I can just be myself and that’s okay because God knows and sees all things, and still accepts me AND loves me, just as I am. Instead of being focused on what others think and say, I need to stay focused on Jesus. When I am focused on Jesus, I am living my life for an audience of One. How powerful would that be if we would all just live to bring glory to the One who is worthy? I want to be able to strip down all of my pride, fears, insecurities, doubt, whatever it may be, and just surrender it all at the feet of Jesus. His power is made perfect in my weakness, and so I will boast all the more gladly in my weaknesses. (2 Corinthians 12:9). I want Christ to be glorified in my life. I want faith to be able to trust that He will come through with His power. He is looking for the ones that are willing and operate in faith. That is what pleases Him. That is what moves His heart.
I’ve also been able to relate with some of my students in Epic, when they tell me they feel lonely sometimes. I felt empathy towards them because I knew exactly what they were going through. There are times when I’m around people, but I still feel a sense of loneliness. But yesterday, God spoke to my heart. He said, “My beloved daughter, you don’t need to feel the way that you do. I am here. I am always with you. You don’t ever have to feel lonely. I will never leave you, my child.” Suddenly, I felt a sense of peace. It was such a peaceful, liberating feeling that I couldn’t help but smile and giggle. I love moments like these—when God can speak to my heart in ways that no one can. Only God will be able to fill that void in my heart. I felt a deeper connection with my Father and it made me fall deeper in love with Him.
All those who trust in God ‘will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit’ (Jeremiah 17:7-8).
Thank you, Lord! You are so good to me.
“I saw you
pitiful and dirty,
sorrowful and shamed
how comforting it is to know that when i am overwhelmed, God is not. when i am confused, he is clear and calm. when all my prayers are, “hey. i don’t even know what to pray so i’m just going to sit here with you for a while,” he is near.
Give me Love that leads the way
The Faith that nothing can dismay
The Hope no disappointments tire
The Passion that’ll burn like fire
Let me not sink to be a clod
Make me Thy fuel, Flame of God
– Amy Carmichael
— Lysa TerKeurst
Still, in the midst of it all, God is there, pointing us toward unbroken companionship. My mind was stunned by just how gracious God is. By how much He wants us to pay attention to His instruction so He can reveal His direction.
Don’t miss this. Unbroken companionship helps us hear His instruction so then we can see His direction. We must not seek direction before obeying His instruction.
Let’s bend our knees in repentance first. Let’s not forget to capture the small opportunities to keep that unbroken companionship. For it’s in the midst of them where we hear His voice behind us saying, ‘This is the way.’
17 Though the fig tree should not blossom,
nor fruit be on the vines,
the produce of the olive fail
and the fields yield no food,
the flock be cut off from the fold
and there be no herd in the stalls,
18 yet I will rejoice in the Lord;
I will take joy in the God of my salvation.
19 God, the Lord, is my strength;
he makes my feet like the deer’s;
he makes me tread on my high places.
I’ve been thinking a lot about how we should perceive suffering. Suffering is evidence of our intimate relationship with Christ, that in the midst of trials, He is to be lifted high. He will be exalted by my joy in the midst of sorrow. Knowing that it is a part of our Christian walk, we should know that it is purposeful and planned. God is sovereignly planning and directly our life in ways He knows we’ll be most sanctified. I’m learning to trust Him with all of my heart, that He will lead me to places I may not want to go; but He is my strength and He will deliver me. In every season, I will rejoice and bring praise to the One who is worthy of it all.